Sunday, October 14, 2007 12:49 AM
you know, i really regret doing all those. i really damn regret. i'm damn scared of what would happen. i'm just damn scared of everything now. why did you do those? you've never thought of how i would feel. from the past, till now. everything you've done, is for your own pleasure. what about my feelings?
today just sucked. totally.
audition sucks.
auditioners suck.
everything just suck.
win the game also kena scolded biatch.
use noob account also for nothing kena kicked.
ask why kena kicked also kena scolded by everyone.
answered questions even though i felt horrible.
then i thought of the past, thought of everything that happened between you and her. and assuming how happy you two were together. you have any idea how much it sucks? all the lies and truths mixed together, i really don't know what am i supposed to believe in anymore.
you promised to be there when i messaged you.
but when i called you, you didn't even answer.. you're just too busy with your own stuff. and you just left me here imagining everything on my own.
i'm not a saint you know. i get confused too. i get depressed too.
i'm not a computer. i can't say forget, then i simply forget everything. no, apparently you think i am. i can't forget as easily as i forgive. i really can't.
was she really better than me..?
did i do something so terrible you had to punish me for it?
did my trust mean so little to you that you can simply break it again and again..?
why are you never here when i'm down and out ..
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i feel like a substitute. i feel like a good-for-nothing, useless piece of shit. i am stupid, untalented, domineering, unreasonable, irritating, fake and nothing good. i'm just everything bad.
dammit. can i just freak off and die please.
ps. please don't tag. thanks.
